So the past few days weren't good....
I had planned to take the NBME by today...if all had gone well....so that i could guage how ready i was for the exam...the NBME is said be an excellent predictor of performance on the real exam...but i am still truding along with my third reading....i still have bits and pieces of behavioural science to review...plus neuroanatomy and gross anatomy...AND...the most horrible of all..the antimicrobials,antineoplastics from pharmacology.....*sigh*...i NEED to get all this done by another three days at the max!!!!!!!....i then plan on doing a quick review of biochemistry and pharmacology from FA...and then taking the NBME on the 15th....that would be 12 days(i am not counting the 28th...cos it just doesn't count!!) before my exam...ideally the NBME should be taken about three weeks before the exam...but i never felt as if i was ready....which was just stupid on my part....but oh well...i hope i do well on the NBME....that would be a good morale booster...
One more thing thats bothering me is that you know how there are times when you pray and you just know that your prayers are going through......it just isn't that way anymore...its not even about the prayers......its more about an inner calm and satisfaction.....there is a considerable amount of restlessness....probably attributable to the fact that i am stressed out about this exam....hmmmm.....i so hope that i some how get that soothing,serene feeling....it has been ages....
Today was better....got up...had trouble studying at home.....went to the library...spent 7 hours there reviewing embryology...and i actually enjoyed it!!!(although a couple of ultra- giggly high schoolers made my head spin for a while).....am back home....my break originally meant to be for an hour has turned out to be a two hour one.....should get down togoign through fist aid....oh and questions on behavioural science....till later!